hi, once again its me, i just read you blog, i mean, i really hurt you so bad, you shouldnt talk to me anymore, you mother is right, aii, i am feeling not i just only hurt you, i hurt you mom at the same time, right now when i watch the tvb shows, the picture of me in your family just pop up by no reason, i really had a lot of fun with you family, like we bbq outside, hot pot with the full table of people, every morning me and you mom go to have breakfaster and shop for food, i am so miss that right now, i really enjoy those lifestyle, i dont even want to end it, but shit happened i am so regretted now, but i know past is past nothing i can do about, you sound like you are having a good life, well i hope after this mail, i will not interrupt your life once again, i mean i just want to tell you how i feel right now, i was gonna call your mom and talk to her, but since you are saying she doesnt want you talk to me anymore so i can tell  she really hates me, so i hope when the time is right i just want to talk to her as a regular friend relationship, nothing that i want to come back to interrupt or mess up your life once again, but as a friend to your family, that is the little request from me! i mean if she wants me to completely out of your Wong's family, i can do it right now and never contact with you guys anymore, i really hurt you bad enough, i am a big fat liar that wasted your life, you dont have to forgive me nothing, its me owed you and your family a big time, but i hope that i still can be a friend with your family, when the time i come back visit hk, so i can call you guys out and have a nice dinner or something, nothing more that i want from you guys, i know that is a bullshit question that i have asked, if you dont want to i wouldnt force you guys, i mean i called you for a couple of times i just want to check on you see if you are doing ok, but i dont know why you gave me a cool feeling, but that should what i deserved for it, you dont have to treat me like we used to before, i am no body to you, i know your life is running beautifully, when i see you pick up your feeling and back to your normal life, i feel good about yourself, and i just want to let you know that i got back my phone number, cuz my friend works at the phone company, he canceled my stolen phone number and reactivated  so my number would be the same 781 888 6928, so i hope it will be the last time that i bother you ok? and i know what to do, dont worry, i am not trying to ask you for other chance, i know it wont be happening, but i just want to be a friend from your family ok! have a good day, and say hi for me to your whole family please

我睇完哩個email....我都唔知俾咩反應好....其實我屋企人都唔係咁小家...我地繼續都係朋友....

小學籬芭旁的蒲公英　
是記憶裏有味道的風景
午睡操場傳來蟬的聲音　
多少年後也還是很好聽
將願望折紙飛機寄成信　
因為我們等不到那流星
認真投決定命運的硬幣　
卻不知道到底能去哪里
一起長大的約定　
那樣清晰　打過勾的我相信
說好要一起旅行　
是你如今　唯一堅持的任性

在走廊上罰站打手心　
我們卻注意窗邊的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很緊　
很多的夢在等待著進行

一起長大的約定　
那樣真心　
與你聊不完的曾經
而我已經分不清　
你是友情還是錯過的愛情

近排我好中意蒲公英的約定...唔知點解佢0既歌詞都唔係十分之吸引我, 而係佢0既melody好正..

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